Thursday, May 12, 2005

Like a deer in the headlights

Boy, I thought the Spring Equinox (last time I posted) was supposed to be a renewal of energy -- huh, more like a stall of energy for me. I haven't been able to muster the energy for posting, thinking or writing in well over a month. Wake up, wake up, wake up... The poppies keep putting me back to sleep.

Fighting the frequency fence, the Matrix, the predator, the General Law that throws "A" influences at you constantly can be quite a struggle. I can't even seem to muster the energy to finish repairs to my house or get a sign put up out front, so we can sell the blasted thing before the real estate bubble pops and use the money to get out of the country.

I must focus on an aim, one little goal at a time; otherwise, it becomes overwhelming and I do nothing, so my goal for today is to finish this post, then go home and try to hang some more wallpaper. Pretty mundane, but you'd be surprised -- these have been my goals for about three or four weeks now and nothing's been done.

Most days I come home from work and feel like a deer in the headlights, dazed, confused, stoned, numb, whatever, but unable to "do" anything toward my goals. Apparently, John Kaminski feels that way, too, and he discusses some of the same questions I've been struggling with, like whether to leave the country or not. Check out his latest article on, called Deer in the Headlights. In part he says,

"Never have I heard so much talk as over the past few years about people wanting to escape from warmongering America. I get postcards from Costa Rica, cryptic e-mails from Thailand, letters about how nice it is in Denmark or Portugal or Brazil, all from people who have shucked that furtive sense of panic that still grips many people with actually functioning souls who remain uneasily in their decaying United States.

Once I wrote that we shouldn’t run off to foreign places, that the best of us should stay and fight for what is truly ours. But who can blame those of us who are intimidated by the widespread lack of support for values and actions that are truly humane. What’s the score now? About six people in the entire Congress who are apt to tell the unvarnished truth about anything? And not a single newspaper.

To not be afraid is to be stupid."

Where is this numbing effect coming from? Why, Neo, from the Matrix, of course! The Architects have designed the Matrix to numb us and dumb us down, to program us as nothing more than mechanical slaves, bound to the Matrix by debt, fear and mind controlling propaganda. Anything to kill the soul will do. Well, that's assuming you or I have a soul, as Kaminsky points out. Half of us may be "organic portals," devoid of the capabilities of higher feeling and thinking. From the looks of our current government, the organic portals are taking over.

Anyone remember the movie, Invasion of the Body Snatchers, with Donald Sutherland? I just thought it was a good horror/sci-fi flick the first time I saw it way back in the early '80s. Now, as with so many works of fiction, the plot seems to be unfolding before our very eyes. In the movie, if you didn't conform to the routine of folks whose bodies had been taken over by some sort of mind controlling plants (aliens), you were singled out by the crowd with screeches and pointing, so that everyone would know that you were not one of "them," then the police, now also taken over by aliens, would come and round you up.

Boy, if that doesn't remind me of the very behavior used to discredit and defame anti-war protesters like Susan Sarandon, Michael Moore, Sean Penn, the Dixie Chicks and the poor French, who merely were exerting their right to their opinions in a supposedly "free" society. The screechers, organic portals, or the "clappers," as I like to call them, had a field day denouncing these folks on every talk show and news magazine, weaving it into themes for TV sitcoms and movies, making jokes on late night TV. This is how the Architects operate, you see. When someone gets out of line, whack! They are hit with a barrage of defamation, discreditation and ridicule. And, if they aren't careful, they might just end up like JFK, JFK Jr., John Lennon, Martin Luther King Jr., Bobby Kennedy, nearly 20 microbiologists, Sen. Paul Wellington and hundreds of others who have been "offed" by the secret government over the last 40 years for pursuing the truth and speaking their mind in public -- for daring to stand up to the Architects and telling it like it is.

Keep struggling with me, Dorothy, to wake up to the truth, instead of acting like a deer in the headlights.